An evening of gloom (the bell tolls for thee)

A lot seems to be going on with the world today which is plain wrong. We can feel it, sense it.

"Things aren't like what they were when we were young." "Life was much more simple in those days."

 These lines have been spoken from one generation to the next, with the older one always lamenting those days gone by when the weight upon their shoulders was not quite the mountain it is at the time of voicing their sorrowful objection to the change in times.

I am in one of those dark moods which make me maximize the negative and prevent me from seeing the miniscule rainbow that looms over the dark clouds that fill my horizons at this time. I am, not going to apologize for it because, well, some things need to be said and some things need to be let out. Period.

1)We are more addicted to finding out who screwed up what in which aspect of his/her lives instead of making our lives more productive.

2) Instead of planting seeds, we cut down trees by the fucking dozen. And lament on how the summers are longer and more hot, and the rains less frequent.

3) We keep our love bottled up inside instead of giving it out to others. We're afraid we'll look foolish and too naive if we help people who genuinely need it. We use the social media as a substitute for face-to-face interactions, and genuine laughter.

4) We like to keep a distance. From people, from nature, from exercise, from discipline, and from following our true dreams.

5) With the advent of life becoming more comfortable (for us,at least; I can't speak for the starving children in Africa), we are afraid to expend ourselves even a little. Things are more readily available; we don't sweat for them, don't struggle to attain them, they're present at the end of our fingers where they meet the enter button of your mother board.

6) Ever remember the time when we had a government owned channel that made do for all our entertainment requirements?  Were you happier then or now?

7) The Anna Hazare's and the India against Corruption movement means a pile of turd shit the minute you break the traffic light and there is a cop waving you down some distance ahead.

8) We kill dogs that don't hurt humans unless they're rabid, and let the politicians live, who don't hurt humans only if they're dying, in jail, or in front of a camera. The rest of the time they're as rabid as can be.

9) Today, tobacco is the scourge of all evil. It kills, it causes cancer. But of course! Tomorrow it's going to be alcohol-it kills, it breaks up families. The day after it's going to be butter-it kills, it's fattening, and your mother must know better by now. Teach aversive conditioning to everyone, about everything, including taking personal responsibility for their actions.

10)Let's face it-democracy in a country like ours (India) is about as effective as giving a set of car keys to a demented 90 year old who wets himself each and every day. You need to know how to use the car before you can take the keys.  We need to know how to manage ourselves before we're given the responsibility of managing our country (which we do by voting for the trendiest, or flashiest,the bigger familia,  or the one who has lesser corruption cases in his name). A country like ours needs an iron hand, a whip capable of such ferocity and pain that we dare not risk being at the receiving end of it. Only then will we learn. Until then, money talks, caste reigns supreme, talent is made to take the back seat and sociopathy takes all. It's called conditioning. It has worked for other countries, and for a people as eager to be subservient and have others make all our decisions for us, it's just what the doctor ordered.

Good night, and may you not fear being good. We can do with more of it right now. 

Face your life

As I returned home from a social outing, I did what many people normally do-go and check their Facebook page. And I realized that I did not not have anything to post, I didn't have much to say, and that I was basically browsing Facebook to see if there was anything interesting that someone had posted.

 Now, this may all seem fine if we log onto the net once a week, or every few days or so. But I know people who are so glued on to Facebook that it would appear to be their proxy for all social interaction. It doesn't hurt that much to type out something and confess rather than actually tell it to the person who wronged you. You don't need to remember anybody's birthday now-Facebook does that for you as well. You don't need to call somebody you've been out of touch with as well, Facebook gives you all updates about their lives, including their significant life events! I suppose the only thing that people do not come to know about through Facebook is someone passing on, and that might change anytime too!

It is all well and fine if we use the internet and it's numerous assets for things that we want, but it should never be a substitute for things we need. I also use Facebook just as much as the other person, and I do not mean for this to be a holier-than-thou preaching session. What I do want to point out is that we, as a generation, are drawing too many boundaries, too many limits for what is appropriate social interactions, and what isn't. Like the strip below:

What do you guys feel?

Showdown!

Can't wait for The Dark Knight Rises. Just hoping it's as good as The Dark Knight. July 20th, A Fire will Rise.

Don't ever give up. You can't!

Of pain and pleasure.

The elusiveness that is inherent in any given pleasurable experience is what makes us crave for it in the first place.

Think about the first ever thrill you had, either your first amusement park ride, or your first big success, the first time someone patted you on the back for a job well done (that you actually did yourself). All of these experiences carried with them a thrill, a sense of euphoria that can be explained by the release of endorphins within our system in response to what we perceive to be pleasurable.

Once that time has passed and we're back to our more mundane reality, we crave for the euphoria that completed us in every way imaginable.

It's what is termed in behavior therapy as conditioning. We become accustomed to reacting to things in a particular way, and we tend to get caught in a loop for the rest of our lives. I suppose that's why religious texts, the Bhagvad Gita for example, speak of the ideal soul who is neither burdened with pain or pleasure.

It's a hard state of being to reach for. But all said and done, who would we be if not for our passions and our prejudices?! Souls dedicated to being in the here and now do not have time for ipods and iphones and the galaxy tabs and what have yous. They're perfecting the art of living in the moment, not craving for the memories that give them pleasure, and not worried about a hypothetical situation in the future that might cause them pain.

Given the way we are living now, I don't think any of us can attain that utter sense of completeness that comes with being. We exist to a large extent, and live to a smaller one. Being is elusive, and hard. It's doubly harder to maintain that sense of being in the here and now.

One thing that I am fascinated by is the sheer extreme lengths we go to in order to avoid pain. I do too, regularly. But is there something beyond it? And for how much we talk about it, is there something that is all to transient and shallow in the pleasure that we constantly crave for?

The same problems apply to conditions such as Alcohol Dependence; the craving that is inherent in the condition is first in order to get pleasure or euphoria from the substance. Later on it is largely to avoid the pain of withdrawal from the substance, the pleasure consequently becomes more transient and the pain becomes more protracted. Which is why the initial stages of withdrawal are painful; they're terrifying if not handled and managed properly. But after that harrowing experience, a new dawn arises that is rewarding and uplifting to the person; (s)he sees things in a new light. If they're lucky, they may realize that they were caught up in a raging war (entirely within their minds) that dealt with avoiding pain. Once they see through that, things are easier to deal with; life shines like never before, and the promise of tomorrow has never been more pure.

Maybe what I'm trying to say is that we've grown too accustomed to instant gratification. We can learn to stretch ourselves a little bit and try to hold on for a minute longer, and find growth within ourselves we never thought possible!

Back from hibernation

Something about visiting the places where you grew up that compels you to come out of a long slumber.

I'm talking about Gandhi Bazaar and Chennai, respectively. I guess what has happened is that the old shops have been replaced by new ones. Traffic has increased a fucking million times over. It is heartening to see a lot of the old shops, the old vegetable vendors sitting in their old spots selling vegetables that are not packed in plastic bags, don't have stickers on them and don't have a dude swiping your credit card. They still take cash here, keep it in a small pouch and sometimes act rude towards you.

The number of people riding cycles has reduced dramatically. Replaced by cars of all makes and sizes. Bikes are much more too.

I think the only thing that has reduced is human interaction and human experience, and this has reduced to an extent one would never have thought possible.

We tend to get wrapped up in our own little microcosms and tend to exclude all that is human in our day to day lives and see it replaced by electronic media, be it for communicating, transacting or for entertainment. Whatever happened to a face to face chat on a park bench with the one you love? Instead of sitting in front of the television and allow the images to eat away at what is left of your energy and initiative?

I never thought I would be the old fashioned type, but I'd still like to think that a cell phone is only for keeping in touch with people and should be treated like a phone and not your entire life synthesized into a single tablet of circuits. Which is the trend these days. I also feel that a chat over the phone does not substitute for a google talk chat. I suppose we need to hold on preciously to these moments because the day is fast coming when we won't have any of them to rely upon. We'll have .avi files and the like to keep us company.

As for me, a lot has happened in my life since the last post. I completed by MD and am engaged to be married to a wonderful person by name Megha. I suppose I am not celebrating my own personal highs because the larger scheme of things has me worried. I guess we can do our own bit to reduce the burden of the electronic device in our life. That is, if we want to.

What are your views, dudes and dudettes?

I'm a Star Trek geek!

Today I'm going to talk about Star Trek. Ok, Ok, have your laughs and get it out of your system already!

I know that killing your enemies with a single photon torpedo while they have all guns firing at you is a tad unrealistic, but think about the larger implications of this franchise; there is life outside this planet, outside the galaxy we inhabit, outside galaxies that surround ours as well. Other beings, other life forms, other forms of energy, dimensions of time that exist in parallel with our own, the possibility of multiple dimensions, it's so rich!

I find it a fascinating concept and its never failed to draw my attention to the exciting possibilities that it has to offer.

Imagine meeting another form of life that may or may not be vertebrate. Imagine they were a peace loving species, one that does not feel the need to conquer or mutilate owing to their own internal insecurities. How would we be able to handle them? Rape and kill them due to our collective fear of losing control over what we perceive to be our personal space?

Or would we be so bold so as to actually learn something from them? Can we foresee ourselves as being so open so as to be open to another fresh, interesting idea, instead of rehashing old ones time and time again?

Mind you, in that day and age the human race has eliminated hunger and poverty!So an idea like that may well be improbable.

But we tend to make the same assumptions that issues that exist in this day and age will continue till the 23rd or 24th century or whatever: Imperialism, Fascism, Deceit, War, and anything else gory. Which is why I find the franchise a tad too presumptuous in thinking that these issues wont be solved given the extent to which humanity as a species has evolved in the past 300 years!

If any of you have browsed through my blog it would please me a great deal if you took home the message of personal growth, personal choice and the importance of a live-and-let-live attitude from it. These are the things that interest me a great deal; but I have to admit that there are times when I find these practices far more easy to preach than implement.

Recent events have in so small part been responsible for my frustration but I would still like to believe very much that it is possible to overcome obstacles that seem insurmountable, change oneself when it seems least likely and to dream the impossible dream. But what I have come to realize is the sheer amount of singular intensity it takes to see these dreams translate into an equally satisfying reality. I have also realized it is far more easy to preach and that the enacting and application of these principles are a bitch to deal with in real life.

I would love to see my own dreams come to fruition;whether or not I have the strength of purpose to actually make it happen is a different question altogether. I suppose people who have succeeded in making their dreams a reality will be far too busy to actually advise others as to how to go about doing it!! But it will be interesting nonetheless.

Think like a superhero!!

Food for thought: If you had the power to control the minds of other people, would you manipulate the mind of the one that got away to fall in love with you for eternity? In a single, precise moment of a much needed intervention? Think about it!

Of Actors and Acting

Leon: The Professional is a film by Luc Besson made in the early 90's and stars Jean Reno as a socially challenged hitman who drinks a lot of milk and kills with startling precision and efficiency. It also stars Natalie Portman in her film debut at age 11. And man is she awesome!! Her performance is faultless, brilliant and touching. There is also Gary Oldman who plays a corrupt, volatile police officer who is hooked to either opioids or amphetamines. And boy is he scary. I had my jaw wide open in the first couple of scenes where he was featured. What surprised me all the more is that this is the same man who plays Jim Gordon in Nolan's Batman Universe!! What a startling contrast and a testament to how good, nay, brilliant a performer this guy is. PS: He plays Sirius Black in the Harry Potter movies as well!! Portman and Oldman should have won Oscars for this, in my opinion.

Acting is one profession that I have always been interested in and I also like to mimic sometimes. I would not be lying to you when I say that I mimic fairly well too. While we see the glamour of the acting world and the money and the limos, little do we realize how difficult it actually is to play another character apart from yourself. And to do it for a sustained period of time, take after take after take, is hard. Of course cutting through a man's insides and removing his appendix is tough too, but the point is that these guys have put in their dues in training and deserve at least a part of the money coming their way. They do get paid outrageously high amounts though, I must admit.

Couple of other notable performances that haven't won Oscars; let me know what you think too:

Sharlto Copley: District 9
George Clooney: O brother where art thou?
Aaron Eckhart: Thank you for smoking/The Dark Knight
Christian Bale: American Psycho
Gary Oldman: Bram Stoker's Dracula
Meryl Streep: The Hours
Julianne Moore: Boogie Nights/The Hours/ Far from Heaven
Ralph Fiennes: Schindler's List/The end of the affair
Robin Williams: Insomnia
Mark Walhberg: Boogie Nights
Josh Brolin: No Country for Old Men
Heath Ledger: Brokeback Mountain
Alan Rickman: Die Hard
Denzel Washington: Philadelphia
John Cusack: High Fidelity

The list in only a few people whom I felt were not given their due share during the award season.

Indian Performances:

Sharman Joshi: Life in a Metro
Boman Irani in anything!
Kay Kay Menon in anything!
Konkona Sen Sharma in Omkara
Farhan Akhtar in Rock on/Calling Karthik
Abhay Deol in Dev D

Agree? Let me know what you guys think.

Hello Ladies and Gems.

As of this minute I'm sipping a Carlsberg and browsing the web and seeing a couple of my friends' blogs. I haven't done this is a while I must say!!

I am also doubly at leisure today because I had a presentation in my Unit yesterday and, as all presentations go, was conceptualized and executed in the wee hours of the morning and I had barely slept. The presentation had gone on a bit better than expected and so I was more relieved than happy when it was over 'cos I really wanted to sleep after that!

What made the experience more palatable for me was that one of the faculty members, whom I have a lot of respect for, told me that I had done a good job with the presentation and basically a well done comment was made. I was quite happy actually, and that comment sort of made the day for me.

Please bear with me here. This is not an ego trip I assure you!!

The need for validation by outsiders is a phenomenon that I have been quite fascinated by. In an ideal world, one should generally be secure in one's own identity and have a sense of worth that is independent of praise of criticism.

In reality, it often doesn't work out like that. Self-actualization is a process which, according to my understanding, is where one is finally comfortable in one's own skin. Knowing your strengths and more importantly, limitations. And also knowing there are somethings your limitations will prevent you from obtaining. I have come across a few in my time here in NIMHANS and I have noticed that they are often so calm and composed and seldom go all "I am going to screw the residents today"

I guess this process takes time. You need to experience a lot to know who and what you are, what are the things you can do and what you can't do. And coming to peace with that, not allowing outside static to change your point of view or your disposition,at the same time being a man of action and not caring about the reasult, is what I would term self actualization. I find it to be a Buddhist way of being.

Mind you, Hitler had a lot of the characteristics I mentioned above!! This applies to men of peace, not war!

A Million Little Pieces

I am in the process of reading "A million little pieces" by James Frey the second time around. This book, this wonderful work of art, is about the author's struggle as a drug addict and his struggle in a rehab center and how he befriends the other recovering inmates of the center and their individual stories (to a much smaller extent)

The author was criticized by the keeper of our collective world conscience,Oprah Winfrey in 2006 (not sure about the year), when it was revealed that he had manipulated certain elements of his true life story into something more dramatic and readable. As a person who has worked in De-addiction Psychiatry, let me be the first to tell you that the lives of these people are anything but readable. They are powerless over a crippling addiction, their families despise them for who they've become, and they are alienated by society in general. And they are angry at the world for looking at them with unsympathetic eyes. Yes, it is also true that they lie, they cheat others and they steal in the process of them becoming dependent on the substance they very often wish they could do without.

While Frey may well have manipulated certain aspects of the book, the book is in itself a haunting portrayal of one man's reluctance to seek help, his anger and defiance while in rehab, and his coming to terms with his own problem. And it should be read by anyone who is interested in addiction, or who has a substance use problem, or thinks they might have a substance use problem. In short, it is a masterpiece.

The author has publicly gone on to say that he thinks addiction is not a medical illness and that the element of free will involved in the process of becoming dependent is not present in most of the other medical disorders in current literature.

While I do agree that the environment plays a key role in any illness, let's look at this from a different angle. Is it possible to choose that you keep on drinking daily and consistently until you wake up every morning with trembling hands? Is it not possible to make a conscious decision to stop when you feel that things are going out of control?

I feel that it takes something far more than personal choice in order to make a person want to drink repeatedly and repeatedly. It might be easy for us to say that it is an illness caused due to a lack of will power. Aside from James Frey, I have not come across a person who has overcome the illness who feels that it was something of their own making. The responsibility to seek help for their illness is their own, but whether or not they choose became a habitual, problematic drinker or not is something I am not truly convinced about.

Personally, it was very hard for me to identify with many things that these people were going through, until I realized that there may be something more than a lack of pure will power involved here. The external manifestations, or phenotype as it is called in genetic language, is such that these people often have a history of cheating, stealing, lying to everyone-including the treating team, that makes it very difficult for a clinician to feel sympathy for them. However, once things are seen from a biological perspective, I think our outlook on these people will change.

Alcohol Dependence is the classical bio-psycho-social disorder, meaning that the person's biological constitution, environment and social milieu are all to blame for the illness. I think it's time we spent more effort in hoping to unravel the biological mechanism behind this illness while promoting social therapies like self help groups as a cornerstone for the treatment, or maintenance of this illness.

I'm not talking about God.

There are some people who, no matter how much to try to ignore it, make a dent in your life. They will stay in your memory long after they are gone. They will stay with you in your dreams and nightmares and your day dreams and fantasies and no matter how much you want to, you are unable to erase the trace of their memory from your brain.

These are the people whose attention you will try to grab for years and years after they have ceased to interact with you. You will somehow hope, against hope, that they will resurface, in the wake of who you have become since they last saw you.You will hope, with a lot of futility, that they will realize the mistakes that they had made in choosing to ignore the kind of person you were and you hope with all earnestness that they will take note of the kind of person you have become.

In the wildest dreams that you have ever had, this person was the center. In your most darkest moments, this person was your salvation. In your most cherished memories, this person was the one you would have liked to celebrate with.

And no matter how hard your rational, scientific mind will tell you to end this sort of fantasy world that you have created for yourself with this person, you will not. You will not forget them. But may get over them, but you will not forget them.

And so, we are left with nothing but memories, and hope and a lot of romanticism that the skeptics will tell you you'd be well to do without. Unfortunately, the human mind is not one that is built with this sort of rational thought.

Hopefully, in the end, with the passage of time and achievement (and your cortex shrinking to about half it's size by the time you're 70), you might end up not thinking so often of this person I am referring to. You will only think of it as a passing infatuation of your youth and that you are more wiser now, more adept at handling newer challenges and more practical about chasing your dreams.

But a dent has been made, nonetheless. And it will remain. If, and when it heals is anybody's guess.

There is a dog near my house that is tied inside a small shed for the past 4 years.It's owner, who genetically passes for a human, does not take it out for a walk and leaves it there 24 hours a day. When he is out of town, he ties its collar to the railing of the shed and the dog is unable to move.The impotent reply of all animal rights agencies, when contacted is "We're very far off and can't come". Sad but true.The truth of the matter is that the honchos/chairpersons of these so-called animal rights groups are more interested in maintaining the image of caring for these animals than actually doing something about it. That way, their wallets will never be thin and their face turns up on page 3 of any newspaper desperate enough to take their picture.

I am a great believer of individual choice, and trust me I try hard to make sure that I live by it. But there is also such a thing as treating an animal in a humane manner. If the animal is not rabid, and not out to hurt you, and is docile, then there is no fucking way that you are allowed to tie it to a shed for 4 years and think you can get away with it. I would like to confront this low life of a mutherfucker who is the owner of the dog and tie HIM to a shed with only a bowl of water as sustenance. Let his cries and howls go unheard,let people go by and not do anything as he is forced to defecate and urinate in the same fucking shed day in and day out, and then let's see how many people will run to his rescue( and probably kill me in the bargain). Why? Because he is human, and the dog is not.

Such stories are proof enough that humanity is really not the best species to rule over the world. If we are unable to co-exist with our fellow species, fearing them every step of the way and making sure that they don't get ahead of us, then we very well deserve to be wiped out the face of this planet. And believe you me, that day is fast approaching.

I agree to the fact that there are rabid dogs out there, and they need to be put down. But you DO NOT have the right to chain a dog day in and day out just because you are it's master and you are in a position to feed it every day. It just is not like that. If such were the case, Hitler would still be the emperor of the world today.

Such evil needs to be met with swiftly, strongly, without concern for the rights of the offender. There comes a time when we can no longer leave such matters in the hands of corrupt officials or megalomaniac chairpersons of agencies.

Even if you do not like animals, I beg you to read this. We are humans first, and masters second.

This one entry may be a bit personal; nonetheless I would like to share it with you folk out there. I had taken a much needed day off from work yesterday and had gone to visit my sister who stays on the outskirts of the city. She stays in an apartment complex far from the maddening horns and sounds of autos and buses and whatnot. There was a wonderful view of the mountains from the 6th floor, where she lives, and I could see a huge piece of uncultivated land from where I was sitting in the balcony.The place was absolutely serene.

I figured that this is as good a place as any to maybe sit back for a bit and do some much needed introspection.Of late it would seem that the days have gone by so fast, and this has been particularly true since I have joined residency, that there have been times when 9 months have elapsed without my even noticing it!

As fate would have it, I had brought a novel with me to read and pretty soon I told myself that I would spend some alone time later, once I was done with the novel. Night turned into day turned into afternoon and lo! behold it was 5 pm in the evening and I had to get back to the city,and most of the time while I was there I was reading the book. I did manage to read a good novel, but I didn't do what I had set out to do, which was take stock of things such as they are in my life and see how I could improve (trust me, I have ten things I can state at random that I need to work on).

Silently cursing myself as I was heading back to the hospital, I realized that these moments don't need to happen at a particular time, or place, or under a particular set of circumstances. It can happen right here, right now. And you're only fooling yourself if you wait for a particular event, or place or person to come across you and say "It's time, my friend." I know I have.

I just saw Avatar.Kindly ignore what I said about Avatar having alternative worlds, time travel etc. What it is about is a wonderland, like how earth once might have been, but a world who's existence is threatened by humans who seek to secure wealth at the expense of a civilization, and who will leave no stone unturned to seek what they desire, which is eerily similar to our reality.

It's also a movie that opens our eyes to a world so rich and vivid and teeming with life that our planet seems to be fucking dull when you leave the theater and for that, for freeing our minds for 2.5 hours and allowing us to bask in the splendor of James Cameron's creation, it should win Best Picture and Director Academy Awards hands down.

A must see.

I'm BACK!!

In the 10 months that I have not made an entry into my cyber diary, I have been a silent spectator to many ominous goings on, the most important of which is that Bangalore is now only a quarter as cold as what it was even 2 years ago. In the background of the Copenhagen Summit,this raises a crucial issue of our individual responsibility in averting an impending disaster. But the time frame between application of effort and its bearing fruit is all-important. I only hope it does not become a "too little too late" sort of scenario. And did anybody notice how the onset of the Copenhagen talks was after a similar scenario was enacted in the movie 2012?!!

Apart from which India will probably have as many states as the USA in about 10 years time, given the histrionic demands of certain people in high places, and the ease with which the powers that be appease childish, juvenile requests that are self serving and have nothing to do with the welfare of the people. Who's placing a bet for 52 states by 2019??!!

And hey, I want World Peace too. Gimme that Goddamn Nobel Peace Prize!!

As my experience in the study of human behavior increases, I have realized that, and I may be going a bit tangential here, that as far as the mind is concerned, the concept of religion becomes null and void. It is only the sense of comfort that it gives you. The same can be applied if, say you're in trouble, such as a financial debt, and you turn to another person for help, then in that moment, the person who helps ease your stress becomes possibly the most important person in your life. The same applies to the concept of a religion, and as an extension, God, giving you the sense of comfort. What if the same God exists without any prejudice? The concept of one God who embraces all, and who does not punish you for being bad, and one who is just there for you?

Most of the religious texts in the world (although I am in no way an authority on this), I guess, basically preach the same concepts- of truth, integrity, levelheadedness, courage to face obstacles, and a life of moderation and charity. What difference does it make if it is preached by different people?

I have also noted that television shows, no matter how brilliantly conceptualized and executed, tend to wind up being slightly more realistic soap operas in the end, which is a shame because such effort need not end up as a fiasco every single time. There are, however, some shows that have stood the test of time. The Simpsons, for one. But after that, options are hard to find.

There are also some characteristic lines that are uttered in most shows. Some of which include:
"I will do anything to protect my family"

"I didn't want you to get hurt"

"It's complicated"

"Maybe she's scared 'cos she's so vulnerable"

"I thought we had a deal"

"I did it to protect my family"

"I never imagined waking up in bed next to you"

"Can't we pretend that last night never happened?"

"It was a mistake. I was lonely and vulnerable and..."

And so on and so forth.

I am going to see Avatar today and I absolutely can not wait. I am, as you well know, fascinated by the concept of life on other planets, time travel, in addition to relationships, alternative realities, comic books and the working of the human mind. Avatar seems to be a good mix of most of the above components. Sam Worthington had greatly impressed me with his amazing performance in Terminator: Salvation and it's interesting to see how he will fare in this film.

Apart from T4,other movies of note this year were Inglorious Basterds, Wake up Sid, Star Trek(amazing!!), Watchmen, and Up, to name a few.

That's it for now I guess. Take Care and be Responsible.

It would appear that we, as human beings, choose to define our existence based on how miserable we are, instead of trying to measure it in terms of the many moments of joy it has given us.

A classic example of this would be Gregory House, of House MD, played by Hugh Laurie. The protagonist is a genius doctor who is addicted to opioids and can't seem to function outside the hospital as a human being. In many episodes we see him playing his piano and having his daily helping of scotch but he is seldom seen to smile, and even if he does, it is because he has outwitted his boss or something like that. Genuine happiness apparently is something that has never embraced him completely, or vice versa. Instead he chooses to define his existence on how he keeps on limping, and on the fact that he is a tough hard ass because of his limp and chronic pain problem and hence everybody else are sissies because he is able to carry on with his problem and other people seem to be totally stranded in theirs.

How many of us are like him, I do not know. Maybe it might be due to the fact that I am an eternal pessimist who is unable to look at the brighter side of things , although I do try to. But then again, how much I have tried to seriously be a more optimistic person is up for debate.

As with all things in life, we do live it, but how much of it we do seriously ,with enthusiasm, and awareness, is something I don't want to answer for now.

I have been exploring the works of the Rolling Stones, and I like what I find. For all their hedonism, these guys knew what they were doing and that's enough to give them the satisfaction they keep singing they can't get.

I saw "Rock on" which was quite a satisfying and entertaining film. Quite contrary to what I had expected really .If Farhan Akhtar can star in or direct more movies like this.....quite an exciting prospect on the whole. Akhtar is amazingly at ease as the band leader who reluctantly embraces a past he had long ago bid farewell to in order to find out the reason for his current state of misery. The other cast put in solid performances and the songs are pretty good as well.

More later. Bye.

The death of Australian actor Heath Ledger last January 22 at age 28 was judged the top entertainment story of 2008 by U.S. newspaper and broadcast editors polled by the Associated Press

This scares me. Since when was a person's death a source of entertainment? I expected more from the The IMDB than to publish this.

“Almost everything you do will seem insignificant, but it is important that you do it”-M.K.Gandhi.